Ryu’s Journal
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Entry #4
i keep updating my entries but still dont update my white space, im so lazy-
i keep updating my entries but still dont update my white space, im so lazy-
Entry #3
My legs are filleddd with old scars.
I stopped. Not because I wanted to. Not because I chose to, really. I stopped just to avoid trouble with her.
The day she found out, she told me I made something as beautiful as maternity difficult for her. I didn’t understand it then, but I stopped. It felt like the right thing to do.
Yesterday, she said I should just go back to doing it.
Today, she’s acting like nothing ever happened.
I don’t know what to believe anymore. It’s like the silence between us is louder than any words could be.
My legs are filleddd with old scars.
I stopped. Not because I wanted to. Not because I chose to, really. I stopped just to avoid trouble with her.
The day she found out, she told me I made something as beautiful as maternity difficult for her. I didn’t understand it then, but I stopped. It felt like the right thing to do.
Yesterday, she said I should just go back to doing it.
Today, she’s acting like nothing ever happened.
I don’t know what to believe anymore. It’s like the silence between us is louder than any words could be.
Entry #2
i already want to finish my page-
i already want to finish my page-
Entry #1
It’s been a while since this happened.
I’m having trouble breathing.
It’s hard to explain, but it’s like there’s something pressing down on my chest, making every inhale feel shallow. My lungs feel heavy, like they’re filled with something thick, suffocating.
I haven’t felt this way in a long time, and it’s frustrating. I try to calm myself down, take slow breaths, but nothing works. It’s like the air is too dense, and no matter how hard I try, it feels out of reach.
And the worst part? It makes me feel so big. Like everything around me is too small, too tight, and I’m bursting out of it. It’s overwhelming, and I can’t seem to escape it.
I just want it to stop.
It’s been a while since this happened.
I’m having trouble breathing.
It’s hard to explain, but it’s like there’s something pressing down on my chest, making every inhale feel shallow. My lungs feel heavy, like they’re filled with something thick, suffocating.
I haven’t felt this way in a long time, and it’s frustrating. I try to calm myself down, take slow breaths, but nothing works. It’s like the air is too dense, and no matter how hard I try, it feels out of reach.
And the worst part? It makes me feel so big. Like everything around me is too small, too tight, and I’m bursting out of it. It’s overwhelming, and I can’t seem to escape it.
I just want it to stop.